Post by Lord Raab on Jun 11, 2012 14:46:29 GMT -4
Finding the confidence to wrestle again. Church in Rio De Janeiro, Brazil. Friday 8th June.
He had just arrived in Brazil with his friend but he couldn't go straight to his friend's house. He had to do something that he was meaning to do for a long time and that was to go and get some help with his confidence to wrestle because he didn't have any at all whatsoever going into this match. He was depressed and angry with himself with the losses he had been getting and not being trustworthy with his partner last week because he lost faith in himself and that he was drunk.
Stefan needed to find his courage to wrestle fast before it was too late so while his friend went to Lya's house where he was going to be training the next few weeks. Stefan wanted to go to the church where he needed to go there and pray to god that he needed help. There was nowhere for him to turn as the other match he was having in WEW was just two weeks away and yet his confidence for anything was very low.
Stefan felt very weak in himself as of late as well as he hadn't ate or drank anything in days including alcohol because of the fact that the losses he had were taking over his life and he emotionally was run down since he knows his wrestling career was going into pieces due to his losses. When he entered in the church. He went on his knees closing his hands together in front of the stage where the cross was and begins to beg for forgiveness.
Stefan Raab: I am begging for your help lord. I am feeling the pressure of these losses I been getting in wrestling. There is nothing left for me to do. I can't wrestle without thinking going into the match that I will lose yet again.
Because Stefan was feeling so low and down on himself. He had to do two things that he always feared of doing. Being scared and crying in front of the stage just because of everything that was happening there was nothing left and heck he had the chance to go and represent Meltdown in this test for the best tournament but that alone wasn't helping him as he knew he wasn't ready at all to be going for good chances like that. He knew he doesn't deserve it but someone thought Stefan did but he didn't know who and why he did.
Stefan realizes that he did cost the match for TJ and himself last week but that was because he was drunk and he couldn't trust anyone he even bets on himself on not trusting on this tag partner of his known as Jair Hopkins heck Stefan couldn't trust himself with the way he was feeling as of late. He was crying in tears praying that things will change.
Stefan Raab: I haven't ate, drank or slept in days because of me being a failure in wrestling. I need your help on bringing my strength, courage and getting some wins again. Please god give me all of that again so I can focus on wrestling against TJ and Gabriel and give me the chance that I can trust myself to win matches and represent Meltdown in the Test For The Best tournament.
While Stefan was praying. The Priest saw a man on the floor in tears where he was begging for forgiveness and he stood behind him before he speaks to Stefan.
The Priest: You can win this wrestling match Stefan.
Stefan looked around wondering who that was that was speaking to him only he looked behind and it was the priest that was talking to him and he was still crying but not as badly as he was earlier. Stefan was afraid to talk to him but he knew he had to as he got up from the floor and they both took a seat in the church. Stefan felt lonely and needed someone to be there for him to help.
Stefan Raab: I feel very weak and my mentally to win matches have gone out of the window. That's why I came here to get someone to help me forgive myself because this is not me at all getting down about having 3 losses in a row. I had enough of it and it's gotten to the point where I am feeling angry, weak and crying myself to sleep about the whole losing thing.
The priest was quite nice as it wasn't a normal thing for him to reassure him with things especially when he actually gave him a hug for going through the tough business of wrestling although he didn't know anything about the sport because he wasn't that much of a fan of it. He had heard a lot about it from other wrestlers that have come into this place before to pray against their opponents and dissing them but Stefan's was a different story as he was being hard on himself.
He had experienced wrestlers being nasty about their opponents but not the way Stefan was handling the whole thing as he had mentioned about them but not being horrible to them or anything like that as the priest was going to help him through the hard times that he was going through right about now as he needed guidance and some advice on how to turn things around.
The priest: What's your name before I talk to you?
Stefan Raab: My name is Stefan Raab.
The priest: Alright Stefan. It does sound like that you do need help. What I can suggest is that you need to start eating and drinking something. You also need to start believing in yourself and that you can win matches. You just need to work out everyday.
Stefan Raab: You are right that I do need to go and work out everyday something I haven't done much of lately. I just need something to do to change my ways on winning matches.
Priest had a think for a bit as to what Stefan can do to change everything and he sees Stefan getting a little angry as he could spot that was the main problem with him was that he was getting angry at things that wasn't needed to at all.
The priest: I see already you are getting angry and that's the main problem right there getting angry over little things. There is no need for that apart from getting angry in the ring of course while you are wrestling. Go home and think about everything I said and what you prayed about. God is always with you no matter what.
Stefan felt a bit more happier after chatting to the priest that was there to help him with what he needed to let out apart from his friends and his fiancee all the time as it was good to let his feelings come out as he felt like he was in a dark place of his own at the moment since he kind of wanted to kill himself because of doing so badly in wrestling only he can't because he has 2 daughters from his previous relationship and that he might have another daughter on the way depending on the gender of the baby as he then went straight to Lya's house in Brazil doing a lot of thinking and was going to push himself to do lots of training.
Talking about himself and the match up against TJ and Gabriel Anselm. Duluth, Georgia. Sunday 10th June.
Stefan had just arrived in America where he was going to be wrestling against "The Soul Philly" TJ and Gabriel Anslem and it was his final chance to make it through to the Test Of The Best tournament thing he had to take part in. He turned very weak and he hadn't really ate or drank that much at all and he had such low confidence going into this match that he thought that APW people were pushing him far too soon for gaining title shots and everything else. He was in a dark room today where he was going to be sober no drinking alcohol just going to plan out doing a shoot on people today since he didn't feel like doing anything.
He was of course upset with himself cos he can admit that he couldn't trust on his partner but more so that he couldn't trust on himself on getting the confidence to wrestle anymore so he had to do a lot of thinking to get himself back on track even went to the church without anything to drink not even a drop of alcohol for him this week because he was so down on himself.
This week I am just going to just plan out shoot on people because I am not really in the mood to do anything today. Yes I did cost the match last week but that was because I felt like I couldn't trust myself let alone my tag partner TJ and I know he wants to go out and revenge me and I don't blame him but you all are going to see the new age era of me and I am not going to take a stand for any of the losses I got during the match.
Do I trust in myself to win this match with J Hop? No I don't because when I don't trust myself I can't trust anybody. That was why I lost the match TJ and the fact that I was drunk in the ring that night. Fine you want to take your anger out on me but this is something you are all going to see the new version of me taking people out of the ring and hopefully win the match. You know when someone keeps losing matches. They are hungry to win again well that's exactly what I am going to do to put faith in myself.
He had heard Evan Envi moaning how he doesn't get a chance to represent Meltdown for the test of the best tournament but Evan forgets that he is already champion and Stefan hated the fact he was moaning about it but it was nothing to do with the match as he was talking in a monster voice that had grown on him these last few weeks.
I am in this qualifying test for the best tournament because someone out there has faith in me and they are interested in what I can do in the ring and it's more than what people think already. Americans think oh I beat a German that makes them better than all Germans. No it doesn't just makes you more weak. Why is the flag that important to you Americans like seriously? There are other things more important than that like what's happening around you. I realized that I haven't even talked about Gabriel yet but I get to you now.
Oh Mr hot shot gets a first win on Meltdown recently and he already gets the chance to go for this test of the best tournament? Gabriel why don't you just go back to the line and actually prove yourself that you want this badly? Seriously you are pathetic being all this dark god stuff that you think you are. You are going to meet a German monster in that ring tomorrow night and I have been training my ass off all week long just to get into this match that we are going to have.
Stefan didn't like to team up with people it seemed to him as it proved last week that it was the fact that he couldn't trust to team with anyone he didn't know like again this week that he was teaming with this J Hop guy who again he had never met. He much rather team with his friends who he knows he could trust but they weren't here and they couldn't be here except his cousin he recently found.
I am going to talk a bit about myself today cos I know a lot of people don't even know me. I am Stefan Raab yes the guy that used to do TV Total, Run and take part in sport events like Wok which is going down a slope by a Chinese cooking wok, Autoball is where you play football in a car, Stock Car Racing and Turmspringen means diving in English. I was also a singer for a while and also play poker with a couple of my friends every bi monthly. I am a very rich guy more than you people have seen currently in me but I know what works and what doesn't. I also do my Schlag Den Raab game show as well which means Beat The Raab.
I also had two boxing matches against Regina Halmich which got my first ring experience but I lost that fight. Anyway not going into anymore details about my career because it's not relevant to the match. Just why these new guys are getting a push so quickly is beyond me. I really do not understand that at all like in the old days of wrestling. I remember when you had to earn a shot to represent test of the best but now seems like if you get a first win then you are in it no matter what. Makes me sick and it's most likely because they are American so patriotic they all are. Do I even care about my own country? No I don't in fact I don't care about anyone but myself because yes I am a selfish person.
He wasn't an selfish person when he was with his fiancee Fizz but with other people he was and that was why he didn't really like tag team wrestling but for something like this he had to take that chance no matter what it takes as there was a touch he found in the dark room and he turned it on so people could see his face and he had that mean look in his eyes that he was hungry to get that win again rather than one win he had got over Tommy Walker almost a month ago now.
It's been almost a month since I had a win here in APW but I know I have to make a chance and that includes myself and the drink. Tomorrow night I plan to go in the ring being completely sober since that's something I need to do is to get off the drink and focus on my opponents of TJ and Gabriel. I have seen you in the ring last week TJ and you was weak so very weak and I never ran over to you when that Yarmouth guy came in the ring. In fact you ran over to me because you were scared something I am not at all. I don't like you TJ and you don't like me and you are the one I want in the ring tomorrow night more than this Gabriel guy.
You are irrelevant to me Gabriel as I will let you deal with J Hop while I go and kick your tag partner's ass. I don't even know anything about this J Hop guy at all but I can promise you Hop that I won't let you down this week because this German monster is not going to let you down at all. When it's all said and done me and J Hop will win the match over you waste of space idiots and I don't care who boos and cheers for me because I expect to be the bad boy of wrestling something I am proud of. Fear The Killerplauze and TJ and Gabriel are gonna get Raabinated.
Stefan left the dark room that he was in as he got up and went to the gym to carry on training for the rest of the day as he needed to get himself fit for the match up since he hadn't ate or drank anything in days because of the depression he had for losing lots of matches and he was training throughout the whole night until he went back to California to be with his fiancee and went straight to sleep until the next day to be wrestling against TJ and Gabriel.
