Post by cultclassic on Feb 12, 2011 4:41:05 GMT -4
I felt guilty signing the contract... like I was somehow stabbing Harvey in the back. It wasn't like I was leaving RoR but I am not going to be an exclusive to RoR anymore. I got his full permission to do double duty both in his fed in APW, but still, the guilt remains. Why do this? I am already the RoR World Champion and CWC Showcase Champion and I was the RoR Vixen's champion, what do I need to prove? I think maybe it is an addiction for new competition. Maybe it is an addiction to the spotlight. Maybe I was just really high when I made the decision... I don't know. But when I got the call from APW and when I got the permission to appear in both feds, I felt like I HAD to embrace this opportunity. That is why I am where I am; always embrace the opportunities that come your way. Whether it be wrestling or experimenting with that cute blonde co-worker at Hooters. Never pass up on your opportunities.
As I wait for my plane back to Seattle, I think back to December. In December, I was chomping at the bit just to be signed with national organization. I was waitressing at Hooters and just living pay check to pay check. Wrestling indy shows didn't help. Then I signed with RoR and my stardom immediately began. I won every match I was in and am now their top star. I guess that is why I signed with APW. I needed to answer the question "Am I really that good?" I guess it wasn't good enough to be the best in one federation anymore... I had to be the best in two of them. But will I thrive or just survive? Will this challenge I tasked myself prove to be my undoing? Am I just being overzealous or am I THAT good? I guess I am about to find out.
The sound of airplanes landing and taking off fill my brain. I really wish I can have a cigarette right now, but apparently airports have banned those. And blazing is just out of the question. BASTARDS! But at least now that I am settled, people have stopped asking me for autographs. While I love interacting with the fans, I love having my alone time to think. And my mind is pretty much obsessed with this new multi-tasking I have taken on. Of course, I am not the only RoR person doing double duty in APW. There is Matt Ward, who seemed to be enamored with me for a while.... yeah, I defeated him. But, he is the one face I recognize here. But some of the names sound familliar. People I have seen on CWC and the APW episodes I have seen. I wonder if these guys have ever heard of me or will they not even know who I am. Lets face it, this place has been around a lot longer than RoR. I have a lot more people to wade through to get to the top. It is not going to be easy, but I welcome the challenge.
But will I ascend to super awesome mega stardom or will I fall? Will this be the best decision I ever made or will it be the absolute worst? I guess we will find out in a few weeks, won't we?
