Death And Bills

[The Paragon of Hardcore]

All things must end... or so they say... I want to start out by saying that I love APW and Jeff is the best efed owner that I've ever worked for. He's definitely better then I was... I thoroughly enjoy working with every last player and staff member in this fed and "The Career Killer" Trevor Blackwell loves his APW Faithful.

In my personal life... my Dad is dying of Leukemia... a Blood Cancer that runs rampant through my Dad's side of the family and has killed many men in my family line over the generations. I moved back in with my parents right before Rasslemania 4 so that I could help my Mother take care of my dying Father.

Over the last couple of weeks, my Dad's Leukemia has taken a serious terminal turn and he's now on a steady recline into Death. I've lost friends and family members over the years... some that I had been painfully close to... but this is unlike anything I've ever experienced... its a completely different animal... My roleplays and matches in APW have been on a steady decline as well as I've had to take even more responsibility in taking care of my father and have also had to pick up a second job and more hours at work to help pay for my Dad's steadily increasing hospital and doctor and hospice bills. The newest development? My Dad now gushes blood from his right eye. The eye itself is so coated in his blood that he can't see out of it and almost gives him a Crimson Mask at times. This morning he woke up and the bedroom looked like a scene from CSI.

I'm at work right now and my Dad went to the hospital this morning to find out what they could do to help him stop bleeding... I just spoke to my Mom and she told me that the doctor says there's nothing more medical science can do to help him. I'm pretty sure the doctor said it nicer... but he basically said, "Go home and gather your family around you and get ready to die"... I May not have time to roleplay for Mayhem... but at the very least I will collaborate with Jeff and Kenny to write you a fantastic Last Man Standing match

It sucks because I'm having so much fun with APW... really enjoying the talent we have here and the storylines we've created together... and the main event spot as the top Babyface in the company... Fate is unfair like that sometimes...

I will keep you all posted as my future becomes more clear... I'm not leaving or anything...

[Razor Ryan]

Jamin,

Our Thoughts & Prayers are with you and your family in your time of need and hope to see you back soon.

[The Paragon of Hardcore]

I didn't say that I was leaving... I'm just sorting things out right now... I'm going to try to continue playing... I don't know...

[Phate]

We've got your back no matter what your decision. PM me if you need to just talk at anytime, good sir. Thoughts, wishes, and prayers are with you.

[Matt Metal]

Trevor, all the best man.... were all here for ya

[President Jeff]

We're family here man and we're all here for you in this difficult time

["That Girl" Diana Lambardo]

If you ever need a getaway, you know where I live, and you know the party is always turned out.

[Razor Ryan]

hmmm party at Di's Place...you do know i get so drunk IEnd up in random ppl's beds right;)

[THERE IS A GOD]

PM me, and let me know what we can do about hanging out this week. Maybe we can help each other.

[The Xtremist]

You got my number, know where I am. Give me a buzz brother J.

[fyreangel]

You're in my thoughts bro, you';re awesome trev. See ya soon

[stj]

You're in my thoughts and prayers, Jamin. This place helped me when I was going through my rough patch, if there's anything I can do, I'll do it.