Post by Blade on Jan 21, 2011 21:15:01 GMT -4
Staring deep into the bottom of a Jack Daniels Bottle, Blade looks like he is putting the world to right. It hasn’t been the best of starts to a New Year, but maybe this could be the change of things. Blade is spinning an empty shot glass around on the table until it stops spinning, clinking on the bottle and stopping; grabbing the glass again, he spins it again and again.
‘It’s time for me to take a long hard look at myself in the mirror once again; because there is no way I am heading down the route I chose before.’
‘At the end of last year, things were looking up; I was one half of the most dominant tag teams APW had seen and that even showed at the awards ceremony. The Exchange Rate was flying and we looked unstoppable.’
‘I guess it’s a different story now; and I have only myself to blame. I am currently without a victory in this current year and it’s not through lack of trying. I have never been the most successful wrestler in singles competition, but this is now becoming embarrassing. I need to pull my act together; and pull it together quickly before everything falls from my grasp.’
‘I can’t sit back and rely on CJ to carry the team anymore; if it was down to him there probably wouldn’t be a team anymore because in all honesty, who would want to tag with me? I am far from being washed up, but this whole scenario is taking its toll. Walking into the Pay per View with a defeat on my record doesn’t fill me with confidence and excitement, and we haven’t had this problem before.’
‘I don’t want to feel like this.’
‘I don’t need to feel like this.’
Blade’s emotions are high as you can tell by his trembling voice; his eyes are close to bursting but he is afraid to let out his true emotions in a public place.
‘I can go on about my confidence all I like, but I only have myself to blame; and that’s not a good thing. I don’t want to go around blaming myself for my short comings, but it’s so much harder to pass it on to someone who doesn’t deserve it, I’m not like that. I realize when my luck is down, and it won’t take much to change it, but I need to man up and stop taking things to heart. I can turn a cheek and look the other way, but I am not going to be able to change my ways like that; I need to run face on into my problems and tackle them like a man.’
‘I guess the first thing that I need to do is apologize to my tag team partner and friend; CJ Gates. I know I haven’t been myself recently and that doesn’t help either of us, I guess all I can say is that I won’t let you down at Survive and Conquer, I know you have been working hard as of late and you don’t need me holding you back anymore. I can’t say fairer than that; when we were paired together, no one saw us coming on this far; and you my friend have progressed no end in singles competition, I just hope I am not the one that is holding you back from making your name as a singles champion, because you don’t deserve that.’
A Bar tender approaches Blades table, taking away the empty bottle; he looks unsure, but offers another drink, blade graciously declines but hold onto the glass, spinning it between his fingers.
‘One thing I am is true to myself, I know when things aren’t going right, and unlike a lot of people I try to fix the problems rather than blame everyone else and say that it isn’t my fault; that could be one of my major flaws because its setting me up for failure, and a failure is something I am not. I may not have achieved a lot of things, but what I have achieved I am proud of. When I first signed with APW I didn’t expect to be here for long, and if I am truly honest, gaging the reaction that I received, not a lot of people expected me to be here either, but that is beyond my control now. I stuck through it all; the good and the bad and I tried to improve, and to an extent I did. I was able to shake the tag of being the “Rookie Sensation”, and I am happy that I did because it put too much pressure on myself, it stopped me from growing the way I wanted too. Some people may say that I have had too many distractions while I have been here, and setting up a t-shirt business wasn’t the brightest of ideas, but it was meant as more of a token of my appreciation and was used to let people know who I was; and to an extent it worked.’
‘It’s time for me to step up once again.’
‘Putting the past behind me; I aim to rise once again.’
‘Before I was a champion here, I wasn’t much. I filled in a few places on Overdrive and wrestled when I was told; however I still put a smile on every single fans face in that arena and no one can deny that. They saw that I bought something different to the game, and winning these tag titles cemented that in history. I aim to go down in history as one half of the greatest tag team champions Action Packed Wrestling has ever seen.’
Thinking back to the happier times; the times when Blade Really felt like a champion, Blade’s voice begins to change, it doesn’t feel as weak anymore. His voice is rising by the second, drawing the attention of people sitting on the tables nearby.
‘Whatever trust issues that CJ and I had are well in the past; it doesn’t matter how we do in singles competition because we both know that on the day we are pretty much unstoppable in that ring.’
‘We owned the Sports Nutz leading up to our victory and we showed them that in singles competition and tag team competition that we meant business, and that match pretty much was decided before the bell even rang.’
‘Good night Nutz.’
‘The Red Shield Mafia for weeks made a nuisance of themselves; trying to gain the upper hand with attack after attack, trying to wear us down in the weeks leading up to Christmas Chaos, and yet they still failed to do that. Some will say that they didn’t even deserve a shot at the gold, and I will say that although I believe it to be true, it’s still a little bit harsh. They weren’t the greatest opponents, but at least they helped us build the franchise of the Exchange Rate up.’
‘Ciao, Mafia.’
‘And then then were none, or at least I thought at the time.’
‘The Beautiful Disaster..’
‘A team that seemed to come from nowhere in 2011 and sure have made a name for themselves; hell Brandon didn’t make it easy for myself at Overdrive did he; he pretty much showed me why I am no good all by myself, fair play to him. On the night, you my friend were the better man; you showed me that I still need to improve and I can’t rely on the reputation of being a champion to carry me through it all. You were always serious competition, and you stood up to that on Overdrive.’
‘I bet you feel like that climb to the top of the mountain is that little bit closer don’t you?’
‘Don’t you?’
‘I bet you even think that you are over the top of the mountain and half way down the other side, don’t you?’
‘Don’t you?’
'I wouldn’t blame you after my performance, it wasn’t worth of much. I pretty much lacked any integrity and failed to put on a decent display. I am disappointed in myself, but not because I let myself down, because I let every single one of my fans down. It took me ages, what felt like a lifetime to build up that fan base; it started small with just a following from my mother back at home, and I only I will be more disappointed than her; but I feel weak because I know I left overdrive a loser.’
‘I hate feeling that way, but in all honesty it has probably spurred me on more to put on more of a show at Survive and Conquer. I opted weeks ago not to take part in the Main Event; sure the cash would have come in handy, but mentally I knew that I wouldn’t be able to compete; I needed to be fully focused on what’s important now, and that is the tag team titles.’
‘Brandon and Kaycee have proved to be quite the team, and after their performances on Overdrive, I expect nothing but the best from them, I just don’t know if they can handle the pressure.’
‘Pressure I here you say, what sort of pressure?’
‘Let me tell you.’
‘You See Beautiful Disaster, you have the same problems as every other tag team that has come up against us, The Exchange Rate don’t need to win at Survive and Conquer; you do. You both have to enter the match knowing that a pin fall or submission is the only way you can win the titles. You have to physically beat myself and CJ down, making us weaker than we have felt in a long time; you have to make sure we are unable to come back from the beating you wish to dish out; it’s a lot harder chasing something than holding onto something you already possess.’
‘I myself and not one to lie down and give out freebies; and I can guarantee you that CJ is in exactly the same position. We have worked too hard to get to this level and I personally am not willing to give something up without a fight. I have come accustom to this style of living and enjoy the receptions we receive; it’s a life that is worth getting up each day for, a life that is far away from the one in rehab that I loathed.’
‘I for one hope you feel that you are both at the top of the hill, looking out into the distance for as far as you can see, hoping and wishing that everything goes your way at survive and conquer; I really hope you can feel that fresh air on you of your pedestal because I for one will be more than happy to knock you both off it and see you come crashing down without a chance in hell.’
Stumbling to his feet, Blade knocks over a chair at the side of his table; it comes crashing down hard alarming the nearby customers.
‘There will only be one disaster at Survive and Conquer..’
Blade is waving his finger at a young lady who is sat down with her partner
‘And it won’t be beautiful.’
Blade winks at the girl and begins to stumble out of the bar into the street. The scene fades.
‘It’s time for me to take a long hard look at myself in the mirror once again; because there is no way I am heading down the route I chose before.’
‘At the end of last year, things were looking up; I was one half of the most dominant tag teams APW had seen and that even showed at the awards ceremony. The Exchange Rate was flying and we looked unstoppable.’
‘I guess it’s a different story now; and I have only myself to blame. I am currently without a victory in this current year and it’s not through lack of trying. I have never been the most successful wrestler in singles competition, but this is now becoming embarrassing. I need to pull my act together; and pull it together quickly before everything falls from my grasp.’
‘I can’t sit back and rely on CJ to carry the team anymore; if it was down to him there probably wouldn’t be a team anymore because in all honesty, who would want to tag with me? I am far from being washed up, but this whole scenario is taking its toll. Walking into the Pay per View with a defeat on my record doesn’t fill me with confidence and excitement, and we haven’t had this problem before.’
‘I don’t want to feel like this.’
‘I don’t need to feel like this.’
Blade’s emotions are high as you can tell by his trembling voice; his eyes are close to bursting but he is afraid to let out his true emotions in a public place.
‘I can go on about my confidence all I like, but I only have myself to blame; and that’s not a good thing. I don’t want to go around blaming myself for my short comings, but it’s so much harder to pass it on to someone who doesn’t deserve it, I’m not like that. I realize when my luck is down, and it won’t take much to change it, but I need to man up and stop taking things to heart. I can turn a cheek and look the other way, but I am not going to be able to change my ways like that; I need to run face on into my problems and tackle them like a man.’
‘I guess the first thing that I need to do is apologize to my tag team partner and friend; CJ Gates. I know I haven’t been myself recently and that doesn’t help either of us, I guess all I can say is that I won’t let you down at Survive and Conquer, I know you have been working hard as of late and you don’t need me holding you back anymore. I can’t say fairer than that; when we were paired together, no one saw us coming on this far; and you my friend have progressed no end in singles competition, I just hope I am not the one that is holding you back from making your name as a singles champion, because you don’t deserve that.’
A Bar tender approaches Blades table, taking away the empty bottle; he looks unsure, but offers another drink, blade graciously declines but hold onto the glass, spinning it between his fingers.
‘One thing I am is true to myself, I know when things aren’t going right, and unlike a lot of people I try to fix the problems rather than blame everyone else and say that it isn’t my fault; that could be one of my major flaws because its setting me up for failure, and a failure is something I am not. I may not have achieved a lot of things, but what I have achieved I am proud of. When I first signed with APW I didn’t expect to be here for long, and if I am truly honest, gaging the reaction that I received, not a lot of people expected me to be here either, but that is beyond my control now. I stuck through it all; the good and the bad and I tried to improve, and to an extent I did. I was able to shake the tag of being the “Rookie Sensation”, and I am happy that I did because it put too much pressure on myself, it stopped me from growing the way I wanted too. Some people may say that I have had too many distractions while I have been here, and setting up a t-shirt business wasn’t the brightest of ideas, but it was meant as more of a token of my appreciation and was used to let people know who I was; and to an extent it worked.’
‘It’s time for me to step up once again.’
‘Putting the past behind me; I aim to rise once again.’
‘Before I was a champion here, I wasn’t much. I filled in a few places on Overdrive and wrestled when I was told; however I still put a smile on every single fans face in that arena and no one can deny that. They saw that I bought something different to the game, and winning these tag titles cemented that in history. I aim to go down in history as one half of the greatest tag team champions Action Packed Wrestling has ever seen.’
Thinking back to the happier times; the times when Blade Really felt like a champion, Blade’s voice begins to change, it doesn’t feel as weak anymore. His voice is rising by the second, drawing the attention of people sitting on the tables nearby.
‘Whatever trust issues that CJ and I had are well in the past; it doesn’t matter how we do in singles competition because we both know that on the day we are pretty much unstoppable in that ring.’
‘We owned the Sports Nutz leading up to our victory and we showed them that in singles competition and tag team competition that we meant business, and that match pretty much was decided before the bell even rang.’
‘Good night Nutz.’
‘The Red Shield Mafia for weeks made a nuisance of themselves; trying to gain the upper hand with attack after attack, trying to wear us down in the weeks leading up to Christmas Chaos, and yet they still failed to do that. Some will say that they didn’t even deserve a shot at the gold, and I will say that although I believe it to be true, it’s still a little bit harsh. They weren’t the greatest opponents, but at least they helped us build the franchise of the Exchange Rate up.’
‘Ciao, Mafia.’
‘And then then were none, or at least I thought at the time.’
‘The Beautiful Disaster..’
‘A team that seemed to come from nowhere in 2011 and sure have made a name for themselves; hell Brandon didn’t make it easy for myself at Overdrive did he; he pretty much showed me why I am no good all by myself, fair play to him. On the night, you my friend were the better man; you showed me that I still need to improve and I can’t rely on the reputation of being a champion to carry me through it all. You were always serious competition, and you stood up to that on Overdrive.’
‘I bet you feel like that climb to the top of the mountain is that little bit closer don’t you?’
‘Don’t you?’
‘I bet you even think that you are over the top of the mountain and half way down the other side, don’t you?’
‘Don’t you?’
'I wouldn’t blame you after my performance, it wasn’t worth of much. I pretty much lacked any integrity and failed to put on a decent display. I am disappointed in myself, but not because I let myself down, because I let every single one of my fans down. It took me ages, what felt like a lifetime to build up that fan base; it started small with just a following from my mother back at home, and I only I will be more disappointed than her; but I feel weak because I know I left overdrive a loser.’
‘I hate feeling that way, but in all honesty it has probably spurred me on more to put on more of a show at Survive and Conquer. I opted weeks ago not to take part in the Main Event; sure the cash would have come in handy, but mentally I knew that I wouldn’t be able to compete; I needed to be fully focused on what’s important now, and that is the tag team titles.’
‘Brandon and Kaycee have proved to be quite the team, and after their performances on Overdrive, I expect nothing but the best from them, I just don’t know if they can handle the pressure.’
‘Pressure I here you say, what sort of pressure?’
‘Let me tell you.’
‘You See Beautiful Disaster, you have the same problems as every other tag team that has come up against us, The Exchange Rate don’t need to win at Survive and Conquer; you do. You both have to enter the match knowing that a pin fall or submission is the only way you can win the titles. You have to physically beat myself and CJ down, making us weaker than we have felt in a long time; you have to make sure we are unable to come back from the beating you wish to dish out; it’s a lot harder chasing something than holding onto something you already possess.’
‘I myself and not one to lie down and give out freebies; and I can guarantee you that CJ is in exactly the same position. We have worked too hard to get to this level and I personally am not willing to give something up without a fight. I have come accustom to this style of living and enjoy the receptions we receive; it’s a life that is worth getting up each day for, a life that is far away from the one in rehab that I loathed.’
‘I for one hope you feel that you are both at the top of the hill, looking out into the distance for as far as you can see, hoping and wishing that everything goes your way at survive and conquer; I really hope you can feel that fresh air on you of your pedestal because I for one will be more than happy to knock you both off it and see you come crashing down without a chance in hell.’
Stumbling to his feet, Blade knocks over a chair at the side of his table; it comes crashing down hard alarming the nearby customers.
‘There will only be one disaster at Survive and Conquer..’
Blade is waving his finger at a young lady who is sat down with her partner
‘And it won’t be beautiful.’
Blade winks at the girl and begins to stumble out of the bar into the street. The scene fades.
