Choices

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People were saying that beating Jeff was the biggest victory of our career. We did not buy that. Jeff was someone that we had had fallings out with, he was also a former World Champion, the boss, yada yada yada. But what kind of wrestler keeps track of that sort of thing?

Only the stupid fucks.

People get too hung up on 'biggest wins of their career', and then they settle, they are content to watch their career slide into a downward spiral. They think 'at least I beat...'

Pathetic.

Want to know where we were the morning after our win?If you guessed lying in, no. How about celebrating with a fine champagne? Straight edge, fuckers. No, we had already set our thoughts on the match to come. We were in the gym, then we packed our bags and headed towards the plane to Yokohama.

I was sat in my lockeroom, just thinking. Kristina and I was a match that I had wanted for a long time.

Didn't we crack her skull open?

Hasn't she learned to stay the FUCK out of my yard?

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That had been on the back burner the day that she had turned up as a ditsy mallrat. It seems that I had done her a favour introducing her head to that cold concrete over and over again. I had knocked some sense into her, I had woken her up. I looked up to find the camera in there, it had shown up not long after me.

Like a moth to a flame.

I sighed and stretched my shoulders, my face was barely visible beneath my hat, my shades hid my eyes,.I had wanted a quiet moment, but then since when am I used to getting what I want? “Kristina, do yourself a favour. Do not think of this as a Blackwell against a member of the Church of Kaos, I don't even know why Tony insists on mentioning that in my introduction. Think of this as what it is, think of it as two psychopathic bitches ready to tear each other apart. Think of yourself as fighting a woman that is fighting not to further someone else's goals but her own.”

The Church was nothing to us, Kenny had been nowhere to be found, it was what he did when things got tough. At least last time he had left us with Fyre, Dyamond and Diana.

“See, Kenny has not been around and my only active 'partner' is a self-obsessed woman hating prick. So the Church and I? Let us put it like this doll, I had forgotten what it was like to fight for my own goals, I had forgotten what it was like to not be left the lower titles to pick up, to be expected to do so, but to ultimately be fighting for someone else's goals. I had forgotten what it was like to feel passionate about fighting for my own benefit, until this past couple of months, I had forgotten what it was like to have no one to answer to, no one dictating who or how I fight. I haven't been taking advice or orders for anyone for the past three months now. So the Church and me, we are done. It is my choice and choice, it is important You are fighting a liberated woman, Kristina, a woman who is now far more dangerous for that fact and that is why I gave you this little warning, Kristina, because without it, you would have had no idea just who you were facing. You would have been a lamb to the slaughter, Kristina and I want this match, this match that I have wanted for so long, to mean something more than that allows it. I am not telling you this for your benefit but for mine.”

I took my hat and shades off and I could feel my eyes blazing as they devoured the camera, “But why do I want this match so much, Kristina? I'll give you a clue, it's not for the shot at the gold. I have been waiting for this match for a long time. I respected you once, Kristina, we ran in the same stable, we were two psycho bitches not letting anything get in our way. Then there was what you did to Diana and then I really wanted you in the ring. So this is not merely about a shot at the gold, Kristina, this is about something that has been building up for the past four or five years. But I am worried about one thing, Kristina. I am worried that you are not going to live up to my expectations and there is a very good reason for this. You see, I look back and I see your deer in the headlights look, I see the pathetic, simpering look yu gave me when you saw just how badly you were in trouble, and it makes me think, Kristina.It makes me think that despite the fact that you say I must die, despite all of your words, your attitude, you've been ducking me. I have not hidden, Kristina, even when I was suspended, I was in the arena, I was waiting for you to live up to your words, I was waiting for you to show me just what Kristina Blackwell means when she threatens to kill someone. Your exact words were 'Spirit' Tara Jacobs must die. So where have you been? This is not like what I did to Jeff, I let him know that I was there, that I was leaving him to stew, that I was biding my time. But you, you make these threats, disappear, come back, the you set your sights elsewhere. So what is it to be, doll, are you actually going to give me the match that we both know you should be able to or are you going to be paralysed by fear, are you going to show just what a bitch you are?”

We sighed and stood, pacing the room as we found a bottle of water in our hand. We opened the bottle and took a swig, simply collecting our thoughts.

“Kristina, putting that aside for the moment, ues there is more at stake. You are going to have to show up and pull out your best because you are fighting someone who has tasted World Championship matches, you are fighting someone that has been in an Elimination Chamber in the past. You are fighting someone who went through two shatterproof panes of glass, dislocated several joints, got hit with sledgehammers, you are fighting someone who wants to be in that chamber, in the hunt for gold again. You are fighting a warrior who does not need to imagine what it is to fight for her life in one of the most demonic structures in the business, but knows full well what needs to be done. And whether you really want this or not, whether you are ready or not, you are fighting someone that is going to plow right through you and not stop until she has what she wants. Do me a favour though, doll, turn up. I mean really turn up. Give me a warmup for this steel hell, let people know just how ready for this match I am by being at your best when I shatter your dreams. Show the people who will have fought before us that they are stepping into the ring with a woman possessed, they are stepping into the ring with a woman who is willing to destroy them. Show them that what I did against Jeff was no fluke because I can beat two people on their game in the space of two weeks. Show the doubters that they are wrong to doubt. And what will I give you in return? I am going to make you that much stronger. I am going to break you and leave you to rebuild, I am going to put you through so much that you are a changed woman just for surviving it. You see, the thing with bcoming stronger, doll, is that you have to survive the process. We are going to see together just how well you can survive the torment coming your way.”

She had better make it worth my while or she will be back in a fucking coma.

“Kristina, this is past the time for kid gloves. I have a rule, Kristina, generally, I leave it to the ring to show my opponents just how insignificant they are to me. I broke that rule once and it seems to have done you a favour, but sometimes, it means that things come to such a boiling point that there is only one way it can go. One of us is going to be hurt, badly. Now listen to me when I say this, Kristina, and take me seriously. I am not a man that is underestimating a smaller, lighter opponent. I have never underestimated an opponent in my life, I know what you are capable of at your best and at your worst. You have come off on a high with the titles, Kristina, but your form is fucking manic depressive and I know what I know a little about manic depre4ssion from a personal experience. If you are not going to come to the ring at the from that brought you your title, if you are not going to challenge me, then it will be the last mistake you are ever going to make.”

The tempest was building, it was coming, it was threatening to rip one or both of us apart.

“When you step into the ring, when you feel that red haze, Kristina, know this. I have taken more pain than you could deal out to me. There is no way to get into my head, to twist my thoughts, to drive me crazy, I passed that mark a long time ago. It’s like you said last week, Kristina, how you’re bat shit crazy but at least you’re bat shit crazy every week? It’s the exact thing that you run into with me and I know, I know that in your best form, you are going to hurt me, but that is where I have the edge, Kristina, the pain drives me, the pain defines me, the pain only serves to let me know that I am still alive. This is why it is so important to me that you don’t simply lie down and die, because at the end of the day, you are going to give me my buzz. But then I think I can live with that disappointment if it means that I am going into the Chamber.”

I took a swig of water, looking past the camera for a moment, “I’ll see you in the ring, Kristina. You, me, knowing that it is a matter of life and death. Show me Kristina, show me how close to the line, how close to overload I can be driven, Kristina, give me my fix or feel double in return, it’s your choice. Bring your all, Kristina, ask your brothers just what happens if you don’t. Diana and I put Trevor’s knee out in a tag match, I beat Tony in that match, a hardcore triple threat and then the bloodiest hardcore match that the WWC ever saw. Ask your brothers what it means to be in the ring with me if you take me lightly. See you there.” I stalked past the camera and out of my room, it was my room but meh, he’d be gone when I get back or he’d be a warm up. His choice.