Post by Sentinel on Sept 21, 2013 19:36:56 GMT -4
This happened for the last Asylum show and it has happened again. Twice in a row is just too grating on my nerves and I feel the need to address it.
Put simply, the act of moving into a new house while working weeks laden with overtime (this week alone clocks in at 64 hours) has been sucking the life, and creativity out of me like nothing else has before. That I was only able to muster one promo for the falls-count-anywhere with Shadow for tomorrow's show and barely scrape something together for the Overdrive triple-threat with Zachariah Blood is just...it gets down in my gut and burns like too-spicy chili is what it does.
Winning and losing don't matter to me much anymore. Getting on the boards and writing the best promos I can while having a good time and meeting cool people is my motivation and here, for the most part, I've done all of that. Regardless of the winning/losing part of that, however, I have standards for myself and I haven't been able to reach them as of late both here and elsewhere and that bothers me. Posting this alone is probably making too big a deal out of it but rather than letting it fester, I gotta get it out of my system.
I'm not going to take a hiatus or anything if that's what people think reading this. I'm just going to work to manage my time better and try to put out better pieces for the people who read it. This is more of a little rant against myself, odd as that is.
So...here's hoping that I can get my ass off my shoulders and my head in the game. Because, let's be real here: gold would look great around the waist of Sentinel and Blood (cheap plug!).
Put simply, the act of moving into a new house while working weeks laden with overtime (this week alone clocks in at 64 hours) has been sucking the life, and creativity out of me like nothing else has before. That I was only able to muster one promo for the falls-count-anywhere with Shadow for tomorrow's show and barely scrape something together for the Overdrive triple-threat with Zachariah Blood is just...it gets down in my gut and burns like too-spicy chili is what it does.
Winning and losing don't matter to me much anymore. Getting on the boards and writing the best promos I can while having a good time and meeting cool people is my motivation and here, for the most part, I've done all of that. Regardless of the winning/losing part of that, however, I have standards for myself and I haven't been able to reach them as of late both here and elsewhere and that bothers me. Posting this alone is probably making too big a deal out of it but rather than letting it fester, I gotta get it out of my system.
I'm not going to take a hiatus or anything if that's what people think reading this. I'm just going to work to manage my time better and try to put out better pieces for the people who read it. This is more of a little rant against myself, odd as that is.
So...here's hoping that I can get my ass off my shoulders and my head in the game. Because, let's be real here: gold would look great around the waist of Sentinel and Blood (cheap plug!).
