Special justin.tv video stream for President Jeff

[Lord Raab]

A Special Justin.TV video stream for President Jeff. Anaheim, California. Monday 31st March.

It was something that Stefan felt he had to do before he moves on with his wrestling career that he wanted to take his time to say his thoughts and feelings about Jeff as he presses record on his webcam while sitting on the computer.

Stefan Raab: "Usually I come on justin.tv and trash talk about my opponents before I face them in the ring, but today is different as this stream is for my feelings towards a guy I've had a lot of history with in the past and that's President Jeff and everything I'm about to say is coming straight from the bottom of my heart.

I've never seen an owner that's so passionate about the sport like Jeff has. I lied when I said I had no respect for him before my match against him because at the time, I didn't know how to respect people and I felt scared and until I came out of prison, it really made me feel bad about myself that I spent nearly the last two years hating on him and even though we apologized when he came to prison to realise me, I still feel I need to say this in public that I've always liked the man because he always helped other wrestlers to achieve their goals of becoming champion in APW.

Sure I've handed myself title opportunities and I didn't deserve them, but Jeff drove me to that point where I had to start to become more serious as a wrestler and there's a reason why I wanted the general manager job and it's not because I wanted to destroy APW although it did seem like it at the time, it's because I wanted to work alongside him since he was such a good owner that I learned what it felt like to be a general manager and it made me learn the wrestling business that much more and we actually had a lot of meetings while I was in prison, wondering what we can do to change the company to make it even better than before and those ideas I had weren't just from me, it was from Jeff as well.

I'm being real honest with you Jeff that I really do like and respect you and have done throughout this entire time and I didn't expect you to realise me from prison like the way you did after you closed up APW and after the chat we had, it really made me question everything I've said about you like the times where I said you didn't care about me when I know it was because I was treating everyone like complete crap that it made me want to work that much harder and yes I was an horrible prick running my mouth about APW and you with how bad it's been run, but I only said and done those things because I wanted to wrestle you badly and I didn't mean anything I've said at all.

It's was just a time that I had to do something to get the match I wanted against you at Rasslemania otherwise if I didn't do the things I've done, I would've gone nowhere with my career and it was all down to me to prove myself that I had what it takes to be in the ring against people like you and others in APW. I didn't admit at the time that I wanted to wrestle you because I respected you, but that's truth of it all. There's been times you've suspended me on more than one occasion and honestly, I was mad because I wanted to continue to wrestle for you and when I came back, it only wanted me to work my ass off even more to get to where I was at.

You was a fantastic wrestler and I was extremely lucky to have experienced wrestling you at Rasslemania regardless of people saying to me I didn't deserve to face you cos of what I done, but there's no chance in hell I would've got where I was before APW closed down if it wasn't for that match. We put a classic match between us and to be honest, I will never forget that match because it holds a very special place in my heart that we pushed each other to our limits with most people thinking you would easily destroy me in the ring, but that's what encouraged me to work that much harder to study and do a hell a lot of training for the whole entire month just to find different ways of giving you a competitive match. I actually lived in that school and I didn't stop working out and improving on my wrestling moves because of the amount of talent you showed at the last previous Rasslemania's you've wrestled in. I didn't even eat or sleep for that entire month before we had the match because all I wanted to do was study you and improve my skills day and night until Rasslemania Nine.

When Rasslemania nine day arrived, I will be honest that I was actually very nervous and in some sense scared of facing you because of the fear I had of embarrassing myself and thinking to myself was the training I did at my old wrestling school enough to be able to give you a quality match and also to defeat you. That's the worry I had in my mind at the time and I was very scared most of all of letting you down and I hated this fear I had so I went out there and just to do my job to wrestle you the best I can to try and win the match.

I wish I actually showed you respect earlier and that's the mindset I had when I sat in my prison cell and I was thinking in my mind. My god I was an asshole for refusing to show respect for you after Rasslemania and all the prisoners and even wrestlers in APW said how lucky I was to even have a match against you and how I should've gave you more credit and I am proud and lucky to have that match with you where most APW wrestlers will and forever dream about facing you in the ring everyday and I don't blame you APW stars for that because Jeff will give you a classic match and will push you to your limits.

You really inspired me to give it my all every time I stepped in that APW ring and all the times I could've left, but I didn't because you wanted me to stay in APW and just for me to wrestle. I nearly went home after my match against Reaver because I was so banged up and also having a match the next day in 4CW, but boy I'm glad I didn't because you and Biggs put out one of the best wrestling matches I've ever seen in my life and I actually was crying in tears because it reminded me of how our match was like last year, only you and Biggs made it ten times better so I stuck around Rasslemania last night just to watch you wrestle against Biggs cos you are one heck of an entertaining wrestler, knowing I will never see you wrestle ever again.

It's the first time ever I've actually cried at a live wrestling event since I'm not an emotional guy at all, but that match was something will be remembered for the ages and years to come, making me think in my mind that working for you was worth it and I wanted to come out and hold you above my shoulders to show my appreciation and respect I have for you, but Shadow and AC Smith got there first because while I was watching the match, I was crying a lot at the same time just how emotional that match you and Biggs had against each other and it was special since there was a lot of hype on the match and you and Biggs delivered on that hype."

Stefan even started to have tears on his eyes and wiped them with a tissue and continued to speak.

Stefan Raab: "See I'm even crying right now because I'm going to miss APW a lot and most of all miss you being apart of the wrestling business making things better for APW. Hell you've helped me a lot more than you think with the advice you've given me of what I was doing wrong in the wrestling business and helping me out to deal with my anger telling me where I should go with my life and the day where we spent time together after you realised me from prison was a very special feeling I wouldn't get with other owners in wrestling because god damn it, we had a good laugh and talking things in general was really a touching moment for me.

Hell I even wrestled at Rasslemania on Saturday night because you wanted me to be there to wrestle against Reaver and I wrestled the best I could for you Jeff. Everything that me and Reaver did in that match was for you Jeff not for anybody else and not even for us, it was all for you that our hard work we had to do paid off with the consistent struggles me and Reaver had with our losses in APW, we decided to put everything on the line for you and that's the truth with that.

I'm also proud that you let me do one thing I've always wanted to do since I've been in APW and that's to wrestle for my German fans in Germany. If there's anywhere I'm proud of having the last ever Survive and Conquer PPV. It had to be in Germany and it made me promote the event a lot and gained a lot of exposure to your company that I also aimed to do when I joined APW in the first place so I got to thank you for letting me wrestle in not only one match, but in two matches I wanted to do for the fans in Germany, feeling something I've never felt before with the crowd cheering behind me is something I will never forget.

You're a good man Jeff caring about your talent you had in APW regardless of how much bad blood we had between us. That's the reason why I wanted to do this video stream because I wanted to at least come out with the lies I was making and be flat out honest with my thoughts about you. No bullshit, no trash talking, just things I wanted to say coming straight from the bottom of my heart and there's one last thing I want to say before I go which I agreed with last night.

Thank you Jeff for creating the best wrestling company in the world, thank you for helping me out with how to tackle my life and most of all, thank you for letting us wrestlers go out there and wrestle their hearts off and letting us say goodbye to APW and to you as well because as Biggs said last night that if it wasn't for you, none of us would be here and hell if it wasn't for you for letting me wrestle in your company before my match against Angelica Monroe in WEW, I wouldn't have won that match at all cos you gave me a lot of wrestling experience which benefited me to my advantage that I couldn't get in other companies so I have to thank you with that as well as no other wrestling company would take me on. You did cos you saw something in me regarding my talent wise as I've done with you.

So once again thank you for what you've done not only for me, but for all the wrestlers you've taken on board and doing something great with the company. I will miss you buddy and good luck for whatever you want to do for the future. God bless you Jeff and I'll still keep in contact with you because I consider you as a friend and chat to you once in a while about stuff. Goodbye Jeff and APW and I wish every wrestler the best of luck in their futures of whatever you all want to do with your careers."

That's all Stefan had to say as it was a very touching but yet something he had to do in public which wasn't easy for him to do as he pressed stop on his webcam and went off the computer as he goes to get something to eat and drink for breakfast.

TAGS; President Jeff
NOTES; I wanted to post this on the house show since it's more Stefan's thoughts than a news and rumours post but I couldn't cos the board is closed so I done it here instead to show that Stefan can have a nice side of him and wanted to show his respect for Jeff. It's emotional even for me to write that, but something in Stefan's mind he had to do in public. Hope you'll enjoy reading this Jeff and you can respond to this if you want to dude, but it's completely up to you.
CREDITS; FlawlessGFX Exclusive for STEFAN RAAB
LYRICS; “Cannibal” by Static-X