Tragedy

[J-Mart]

I just found out about 3 hours ago that my mother has killed herself. She went out with her boyfriend and I guess she was drinking and jumped out of the car and was ran over. I'm only 14. I have 2 sisters that are now my responsibility to take care of. I still don't know how I'm going to tell them their mommy's dead. One is 6 and the other is 10. My mom was only 31. I don't know why she would do this. I don't know where me and my sisters will end up, we don't have any family living in Illinois with us. My grandma is here with us right now and she is doing her best, but she is disabled and has no way of getting us back and forth. I have no parents now, at such a young age. My father is in prision for raping my younger sister. I'm very scared right now. I don't know what's going to happen. I already have my Shockwave RPs done, so I guess I can just post them tomorrow. But I hope you all understand what I'm going through right now. I'm not going to be able to RP for a while. Goddamn...I didn't even get a chance to say goodbye to her. I'm more angry than upset though because she left us at a bad time.

I could use some kind words right now.

[President Jeff]

Wow, sorry to hear about that. My condolences goes out to you and your family. Take all the time you need away from efedding and if you don't return, I understand. Stay strong man

[J-Mart]

Thanks Jeff. This shit was on the news too. They're saying she was hit by a truck on the highway. It doesn't add up though. Why the fuck would she be walking on the highway?

["Magic Man" Jason Dixon]

i saw this shit on the news too man. if u need someone to talk to bro, u know where i live.

[Jesse Nuñez™]

Dang man, sorry to hear about that. We all understand if the efed is to hard to stay with. So take some time off.

[zero]

People die, they always do. Nothing is written in stone but one thing only, the past as we know it. It can't be changed and will forever be engraved in our hearts. What we get out of this will make us stronger, wiser, quicker, faster, and more importantly more experienced. All things heal with time but scars will always remain but scars build character. If not for anything else, live on for your sisters and live on for your mother. Take life as you know it to new heights. Life starts off like the window inside a warm car, sheltered from the cold outside. You can make out all the bright lights but the fog makes it impossible to see what makes the light. Everything dark in life is even harder to see. You have to rub the fog off the glass yourself to make out what is what yourself.

My deepest apologies for being a dick as of late. Don't beat yourself up and more importantly, don't beat the image of your mother up. That last smile you seen is all you've got, protect it.

[J-Mart]

I think I'll be alright. The girls have taken it alot harder. My uncle is coming up from Mexico to be with me. I think she was murdered by the two guys she was with. They both say that they pulled over on the highway because one of them had to take a piss. Then when they turned around a truck hit my mother and just kept going. Bull fucking shit. I'm gonna find out what happened for real if it's the last thing I do.

And Zero, sorry for the comments I made towards your mother. Call it some extreme karma, but I feel like such an asshole now.

[zero]

Aug 22, 2009 15:55:15 GMT -4 J-Mart said:

I think I'll be alright. The girls have taken it alot harder. My uncle is coming up from Mexico to be with me. I think she was murdered by the two guys she was with. They both say that they pulled over on the highway because one of them had to take a piss. Then when they turned around a truck hit my mother and just kept going. Bull fucking shit. I'm gonna find out what happened for real if it's the last thing I do.

And Zero, sorry for the comments I made towards your mother. Call it some extreme karma, but I feel like such an asshole now.

don't worry about it. My mom has done too much to me to actually earn respect or the slightest bit of defense. Karma has nothing to do with it.

["The Hottest Shit Going"]

J-mart, your struggle is not your destiny, remember that. Things happen to make us tougher, and from the looks of things you are meant to be a tough son of a bitch. Possibly for your sisters sakes. Listen close kid, you are pretty cool from the dealings I have had with you, your skin is sort of thick, and you can take a razzing; I can't begin to imagine what you are going through at such a young age. I can tell you though you don't need to torture yourself for your parents mistakes or tragedies. I know it's hard to hear and you have probaly been told it a million times already but keep your head above water kid, look towards the horrizion because the sun will rise again for you my friend.

As for the efed thing, I can understand you might not be able to do it, but I wish to say this in the most unselfish way...efedding can be very good for therapy in some ways. It's a good escape and a nice way to deal with things that might be bugging you. I find writting in character helps me releive tension and stress from everyday lifes bullshit. Right now kid you were dealt a heafty plate of it and I'll I can say is me and my family will be praying for you. Stay strong, and hang in there kid.

[J-Mart]

Thank you all for the support. That means alot to me.

["Magic Man" Jason Dixon]

dont mention it bro